fantastic amazing

I think what I hate most about ex boyfriends and past failed relationships is:

that it conditions you to be completely pessimistic towards prospective new good relationships. You meet someone new, and feel really super happy and good, but then in the back of your mind every now and then like a small pulsing little star, you feel a clusterfuck of grief and shit that [insert jerk ex-bf name here] has given you as a going away present. It sucks. 

Not to say that I’m unhappy, I’m not. I was just thinking about this last night as I was half asleep. I don’t think that you necessarily LEARN from dating jerks in the past, but more like, they make you a cranky sad bastard that thinks sometimes, “Well they’ll probably just fuck me over like blahblahblah eventually did”. 

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